URGENT: I am alive. Fuck. I have no idea what to say right now.

I took a handful of pills last night, god I wanted to die so much. But I didn’t.

I can’t stop crying right now, I’m reading through everyones messages, and people do care about me. I’m not alone in this, I truly thought I needed to die in order for me to escape this pain. 

After I took the pills I had awful stomach pains, I was seeing spots, I couldn’t think straight. Everything was spinning and I just completely blacked out.

I woke up at 3am in a cold sweat, and felt like I was going to die. I could hardly breathe, and I felt like I was going to be sick. 

All I remember is blacking out again, and then waking up at 6am. My mum just passed it off as a bug, and told me to drink some water.

I haven’t been on tumblr until now, and I am utterly so thankful to having so many amazing people like you reading this right now. 

I nearly died last night, I was so close to death, like I have been many times before, and it’s not until right now that I realise I am so thankful to have people like you in my life. Sure, I’ve never met most of you, but you care about me, and you love me, and I just don’t know what I would do without you.

I have tons of messages, so I’ll do what I can to answer all of them asap.

I’m crying right now, because I’m so daft to even try and end my life. And also because I’m so lucky to have people who care so much about me.

All I can say, is thank you, from the bottom of my heart. I love you.

  1. neverlesswonder said: Thank god..
  2. bonesly said: So glad that you’re alive hun, the world just wouldn’t be the same without you. <3
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