My parents keep getting annoyed at me bc if i ate “regularly and healthy all the time, everyday,” then i wouldn’t always be sick ugh they just don’t understand sigh
I saw my psychiatrist today
My eating disorder is ~worrying~ my family
(sorry if this is triggering, I just need to let it out)
I haven’t counted the calories in anything I’ve eaten today, I’ve had breakfast, lunch, a snack and now I’m waiting on dinner.
I feel okay
I’m not going to fast today. I’m going to have a healthy breakfast (and probably lunch)
I’m a failure
I’m overcome with negative emotions and disordered thoughts sigh
I just want to eat food without hating myself
I’m really lightheaded and I feel so weak. I haven’t stopped shaking for a few hours and I’m having heart palpitations
Not sure if I should start posting my intake???
I’m actually so hungry but I don’t think I’ll be able to keep anything down