idk i’m just feeling sad and i want to sleep forever and ever so i don’t have to deal with anything
my boyfriend deserves so much better than me
he’d love me more if i had tattoos and piercings and if i was into gaming and the music he likes and if i could skate and if i could ride a motorbike and if i was smart and if i was funny and if i was thin and if i was pretty and if i was better in bed and if i liked his friends more and if i wasn’t so stupid and if i wasn’t so clingy and if i didn’t have so many fucking problems and so much baggage and if i was just better
i want to be better for him, i want to be everything he’s ever wanted and more. but i’m just me and i’m not good enough. i want to give him everything
idk i’m just so sad tonight, i’m so pathetic bye
i hit a low hahahaha i’m so worthless and pathetic and i don’t deserve anything ever. i want to die bye
i’m freaking out about my future again and i hate feeling like this and i hate that my anxiety is so out of control lately and i’m going to sleep again bye
i’m so lonely and i just want to sleep forever
just received some pretty good news which will hopefully make my life a lot easier lol
things are looking up omg yay snaps for jess!!!!
Anonymous asked: The way that you talk about your boyfriend is so lovely
aw wow thank you!!
i’m just so in love with him and everything about him and i’m so cheesy but he really is perfect to me
i went to bf’s today and i hit a low but he cheered me up :))
we watched howl’s moving castle and cuddled and made love and omg he’s the most incredible person i’ve ever met, he makes me so happy
the amount of love i have for him is more than the number of stars in the sky. i just love him so much
so i’m at bf’s and i kinda hit a low and i have really bad chest pains????? like stabbing pain right in my chest???????
feel like i’m dying tbh lol what do????
omfg why am i always tired???? like it’s getting to the point where i’m sleeping all the time and even then i’m still just exhausted and drained and i’m so fucking over it jfc
not really feeling very good today. i started back on my meds and i’m already getting side effects omfg
i hate feeling so low and pathetic and lonely and i don’t want to do anything at all ever. w/e i’m going to sleep lol bye
idk i just wish i could be pretty lol
it’s becoming very apparent that i can’t do anything right and i’m just a disappointment
i’m a selfish pathetic bitch and i always manage to fuck up in some way or another and idk how to fix things or how to fix myself or how to be better and all i want is for everything to be okay
i just want everything to be okay
i’ve literally been sleeping for like 14+ hours a day yet i’m still so tired ~all the time. i’m just exhausted every single day and all i want to do is sleep. idek if i actually have a serious energy problem or if i’m just really depressed
i feel so low and lonely and sad and just down. the only things that make me feel better are my painkillers and sleep, and i’ve been having too much of both
tbh i’m not even sure why or how i’m even alive rn and it scares me a little that i don’t even care anymore
i’m actually on such a bad low and i don’t want to take my meds and i don’t want to be dependant on more medication and i don’t want any help because i don’t deserve any of that
i feel like such a burden to everyone i’ve ever met and i feel like everyone would be better off if i never existed
i hate feeling like this and i just want to know that i actually matter and that i’m important even though i could never believe it because i hate myself so much