i woke up way too early today and i couldn’t get back to sleep so now i have a massive headache

but i’m also in a really good mood today yay and i’m going to bf’s later :)))

i’ve been in such a fab mood all day, like i’ve just been so positive about everything. ngl when i woke up my anxiety was really bad but after a while it basically went away for nearly the whole day?????

i think things are really looking up ((+ new meds seem to be working)) i’m feeling positive about everything in my life rn. i start a course in a couple of weeks, things at home are going well, i’m hanging out with 2 friends this week ((yes i know lmao)), things with my bf seem pretty good atm ((well from what i can tell things are good, i’m happy and i think he’s happy????? i really hope so anyway)), i have a semi decent income, i haven’t self harmed in a few weeks and i don’t plan on doing it again anytime soon, i’m doing pretty well without seeing a psych, ~and i think i’m recovering????????

idk i just feel really good about everything, i’m getting great vibes about life rn :)))

snaps for jess!!

Anonymous asked: Did your bf get you anything for Easter? Did you get him anything? C:

no lol i don’t mind tho

yesss i got him a lindt bunny, little easter eggs and a coffee/chocolate candle :)))

i woke up in a good mood today and i’m feeling fab!!
yay snaps for jess

i feel like my bf is going to leave me and i don’t know what to do

i want to give him everything and i want to make him happy and i want to show him that he’s worth more than what he believes he’s worth and i want him to feel special and i want him to look at me and know that i love him more than i could ever love anything and i just want him with all his flaws and all his quirks and all his silly habits and i want him to know that he’s a whole galaxy to me even though i’m just a tiny star

why do i feel like no one actually wants me around anymore

why do people never want to see me lol i’m so alone bye

i woke up in a relatively good mood today yay!! and i’m leaving the house today to go shopping

snaps for jess lol

but how fab is it when you actually want to go out and see friends but the only 2 friends you have are both exes and they forget you exist and your bf is always busy when you want to see him so you’re stuck feeling alone and unwanted and just not good enough

lmao i hate everything bye

i think i’m actually going to die of boredom omfg why don’t people ever want to see me, its not like i have feelings or anything????

waking up and being sick is not how i wanted to spend my day tbh. i feel so unwell and nothing is helping omfg help

i really just need a friend who i can actually hang out with and see on a regular basis. i see my bf a lot but he’s literally the only person i see. i get jealous when he hangs with his friends bc he actually has friends and i don’t so when i’m not with him i’m so bored and lonely. i wanted to see him tomorrow but he’s busy and i feel like i’m being annoying and now i have no idea when i’ll see him next which is just fab

i feel like everyone hates me and that i’m just not wanted at all

drew started her holidays at the start of the week and we said we’d hang out heaps but i’ve hardly heard from her and that makes me sad bc i haven’t seen her in months and months, i miss her lots tbh

i’m just so alone and idk what to do

i feel like shit and i’m pathetic and i have a massive headache that just won’t go away. i really wanted to go out tomorrow but i guess not so i get to spend the day home alone ((again)) being bored out of my mind and feeling even worse ((again)) lmao yay

w/e i bought a different brand of the same painkillers i take everyday and they have a sedative in them so i’m feeling pretty high rn tbh

i hate everything bye

i’m sorry for being a shit person and for ruining everything please forgive me i’m sorry

i’m so happy with you and you make me feel alive and when i’m with you i can breathe easy and the world doesn’t feel like it’s going to collapse and there’s no weight on my shoulders and you make me laugh and you still give me butterflies and you ground me and you make me believe that i’m worth more than what i believe i am and you help me not hate myself and you make me smile when i’m mad and you believe in me and you care about me and you make me feel things i’ve never felt before and i couldn’t be happier and i want you and only you

i love you

Neko